90; CLOUDS

Bodysuit: c/o Lucky Vintage Seattle • Jeans: Eyeshadow • Heels: Jeffrey Campbell Lita • Necklace: Forever21

That awkard moment when you forget to photoshop your hikeys out of your blog photos. Uh. Oops.

So pretty boring, sorry. I liked generating a nice emphasis on this gorgeous vintage bodysuit from Lucky Vintage, and didn't want to distract from it too much! Apparently this is a bathing suit but screw that, I'm not gonna risk getting this wet and wearing down the material. I'm gonna take good care of this baby.

Also I have no boobs, oh my god. I should try dressing up like a guy and see how many people I confuse. "Is it a girl? Well...it...could be a guy too. I...I CAN'T TELL." I'll be just like Vince Noir from Mighty Boosh. These are my aspirations in life.

So I've been MIA! I apologise you guys. Life just sucks lately, hardly been going out or getting dressy, but I'm working on getting my ass in gear and putting more time into this blog. I haven't forgotten about you guys! I think I just needed a little break. When it stops feeling fun and begins to feel like homework, then a vacation is needed, I think.

And hey, my fiancée and I now have access to a car, so we can actually go places and do things! This will inspire me to dress up and take photos more often, because then I can wear heels and not worry about walking two to six miles in them, won't feel exhausted, et cetera. AWESOME RIGHT?

Also also also. Do you guys...wanna see my brand new tattoo? (Hey, that kind of rhymed!)

I know you're thinking, "oh, Soulmates!" Yeah, this symbol was originally designed two years ago when I decided I wanted my first tattoo be meaningful to me and reflect my relationship with Kathryn. When I decided I wanted a shop, and decided on the name SOULMATES, it just made sense for me to use the tattoo I wanted to get as the shop logo. It's the joining of Aquarius and Libra, for myself and Kathryn, respectively.

I've had a co-worker ask what will happen if we were to, heaven forbid, split up. I'm so gonna regret it, huh? Actually, no. I would be devastated if we were to part ways, but her impact on me and my life will be just as permanent as this tattoo. It will remind me of what a beautiful experience I had with her, how she changed me for the better, and that she is my soulmate, no matter what. Not all soulmates are romantic in my mind, and this tattoo will remind me of who I am spiritually linked to. I know that if we were to split, I would still always love her in some way. I'm not going to pretend we never happened, and I would never regret her presence in my life, so why would I regret this tattoo? It would be bittersweet, but that's life sometimes. Hell, I'm so pathetically attached that I would probably still want to have her in my life, as just friends. She means that much to me!

And that's only if we were to split. Sure, anything could happen, but the above still stands.

And...now that I've gotten all emotional and misty-eyed (ha, wish I were kidding) I'm gonna stop rambling like an idiot. Just wanted to offer that up to those of you thinking the same thing others have thought and brought up to me as a concern over this tattoo. Believe me, I sat on this tattoo idea for two years, and still wanted it! Two years of ups and downs, and I'm still confident it was the best decision I could have made.

I am such a freaking sap. So much so, that my next tattoo might be a jasmine flower for my cat, Jasmine. Yeah. I'm going there. I have a list: Vishnu's name in Sanskrit, Jasmine flower, and a bull skull to rep. my home of the southwest US (holla). Someday.

Man, I need to shut up!


Title reference:

29; Lost Boys

Top: thifted • Vest: F21 • Shorts: DIY • Shoes: Etsy Vintage • Jewlery: everywhere

Lookbook • Chictopia

Yeah, not many shots this time. It was terribly hot outside and Kathryn and I just wanted to go home. (This location is about a five mintue walk from our place of establishment.) Also, pictures aren't as large as usual because for some reason I can't manage to think clearly this morning, and resized them all to Chictopia standards (instead of just one or two) and after having to brighten up two of them to decent visibility, I decided I wasn't going to do it all over again.

In other news, I'm very excited for this Saturday, because I will be over in Boston's City Hall Plaza for this year's gay pride festival and parade. Last month was the youth pride fest and march, which soley focuses on alternative sexuality youth, but the one this weekend is for anyone of all ages, and is on a much grander scale. I had to skip out on this last year because I'd just had spinal surgery and it didn't seem like a good idea to go out into Boston and walk around all day. (Though, I suppose I won't be really doing myself a favour by wearing the wedge heels I decided look best with the dress I'm going to wear, but since when does something like that deter me?)

All of my tip money since having bought my camera is going to required expenses for this trip, as well. I was going to save it up for the tattoo I've been wanting for nearly a year now, but that's what I decided to save up for this time around:

(Please ignore the silly Cinnamoroll stationary.) It's the astrology symbols for Libra and Aquarius joined together. Kathryn's a Libra, and I'm an Aquarius. (Did you know John Lennon and Yoko Ono were the same signs? Yeah, I'm a bit of an astrology nerd.) I want to get it on the inner most part of my wrist, probably my right one. I worry about how much it will hurt, but I'm determined, plus I'm only so worried because that part of the wrist is a sensitive spot.

Yesterday, Kathryn confirmed that she wants to get the same tattoo, possibly on the opposite wrist. No idea when I'll be getting mine... My huge tip collection jar-thing is currently empty, so we will see!

And yeah I know, it's 'risky' to get a tattoo that has anything to do with my significant other in case of break ups and whatever. I was still a bit nervous, because I'm seriously convinced some days that Kathryn will just wake up one morning and realise what a silly loser I am and that she could do better (blah blah insecurities blah) but when Kathryn said she wanted to get the same tattoo, that told me how committed and attached she is. I don't have much to worry about in that case, do I? ♥ (The flip side of the coin is that I could potentially leave her, but really, I couldn't. She's just too wonderful. There's no way I'd leave her!)

I'm already debating a second tattoo, something southwestern/involving a dream catcher. Not entirely sure yet, because that's too far ahead in the future for me to worry about at the moment.